What Hurts More

In loving someone, what hurts more?
Is it to love and miss that person?
Or to yearn for someone that is unaware
I do not dare to love thee
Neither eligible nor compatible
But do not hate me for doing so
What can stop a heart from loving a worthy woman like thee?

The consequences will be grave if the truth is known
Thunderous storm will rock the boat and the outcome will be unbearable
So I choose to be the gutless emotional person that people know of me
And just hide inside my sorrowing hermit self
I just want to wish thee happiness
As seeing one’s love happy is sufficient for me.

Inspiration

Why bother about the past when you have the present
Knowing the truth is hard but being kept in the dark is worse
The truth is known, I have accepted it, life still has to go on
I will forgive as there are no more hatred left in me
Unfortunately I will never forget, as it creeps in the tiniest memory of my brain

Life objectives will change and mine just did
Drifting in the sea like a wood
I have no aim and no goal left
Thank goodness the waves are there to guide me

I want to leave this behind and enter a new life
I will leave but not forever
Time will cure me where I hope to find a new heart
But sadly, no heart will want me

So what if I like someone,
Loving someone is not just simply to be with that person
But seeing that person happy is enough for me even though you are not a part of her
I shall not sink the ship for my personal ambitions

For the secret, I may tell it to someone
or, maybe it will return to mother nature with me unknown to anyone around me

Time to end this entry again, I will close it with the analogy of grass
An old grass may suit your bud
But a tainted one will make you forsake it
Time to find a new one
It maybe there but I do not know where is it
Even though you find it, you will never get it
O fate please be kind to me
I am at your mercy