Can't get a wink

Trying to close my eyes, to rest my tired mind...but I could not, I just could not. Thus, here I am back wring this blog again. I know my behavior had been too erratic recently, behaving unlike what you all perceived me to be. I am sorry if I have hurt anyone by my mean jokes, I know I can be mean sometimes, but I only want to make others laugh. I am maybe in despair now but I seek pleasure from seeing to you all laught. I do not want to hurt anyone and for you all to be sad too, I want happiness in you all, that's the best gift a friend can give to you. In this sad moment, I really enjoy listening to a particular song, "If I could turn back the hand of time." I know I had been playing this song over and over again, and it became too irritating for you all as it saddens the mood. But this song exactly describe how I am feeling now...It would be so wonderful if we are allowed to return to the past to change all the mistakes we made, but probably it will just cause more disasters to the already grieving earth that we live in now.

I really glad that friends have been there to support me, people had willingly offered me their ears so I can pour out my sorrows...Oh, sensetive emotional Pisces me, why must i make trouble for others while they have enough problems for themselves...I wish to use this opp to thank friends like Matt, San, Paulina, Tuck, Selena and all those who had help me in one way or another...A sincere thank you from the bottom of my heart.